You made me a mother

26 June 2015.

My dear Nana, you made me a mother.

It’s been the most stressful,  intense, challenging but absolutely wonderful year. The days are slow, but the years are fast. In a blink of an eye, from a tiny little newborn baby to this cheeky little girl. I can’t believe how you have grown from day 1!

The very first moment when I saw you, I remember I said: “oh my god, oh my god”. I held you in my arms, you were laying on my chest. You covered with some fluids which make you look a bit greyish, and you are very fragile. You did not cry it out loud by the moment you are here, you look calm which not the same case when you were grown because you cried hysterically most of the time. Hahahahahaa.

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I have to admit it is not love at first sight. It’s strange. It’s not how I imagine it would be. You seem like a stranger to be, but yet you are somebody very close to me. It’s strange. Life was so hard, it’s getting really tough. I’m new to everything; breastfeeding, taking care a baby, changing diapers, bathed a newborn, all my hormones runs up and downs. Even all the baby products overwhelmed me. There are days where I broke down, I feel that I wasn’t ready being a mother.

Days by days were gone, the strange feeling getting lesser and lesser and I started to cope with my life with you. Every day I hope I could provide you the best I can. Never in my life that someone ever made me feeling so. But for you, I’m willing to do so. And they said, you will finally understand how does it feel to be a mother when you are a mother yourself. When you are gifted with a baby, you are gifted with a super power as well. There’s nothing you can’t do for your kids. Even with all the stress and difficulties, as well as all the midnight pumping and nursing, I choose to continue to provide you mother’s milk no matter how difficult it is. I hope it’s nutritious enough to build you stronger. It’s not an easy journey, but I make it through for a year already now and might still continue on. I’ll let you wean it off on your own automatically when the time comes.

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My dear, you have no idea how many sleepless nights both me and your father went through after you were born. We were frustrated, feeling fatigue, very tired at work but all these feeling was gone, when we came home after a long day at work and play with you. You grow up to be very cheeky. You enjoy people’s companion. You likes to play with elder kids/babies and enjoy laughing and smile all the time. It’s so priceless to us, no matter how tired we are, your smiles brighten up everything. You might be too young to understand how does the real world is, I hope you can continue to be as innocent and as curious as you are as a baby. And you have no idea how much joy you bring to us since the day you arrive.

Thank you for being part of our life. You change my life, you make me discover an inner part of myself that I have no idea it actually exists. You made my life so meaningful. And most importantly, you made me a mother.

13241651_10153916768049667_683447161_oCredit goes to our friend, Stephen Yap @ RS Studio for this image!

26 June 2016.

Happy 1st Birthday, oh my baby Nana.

Stay healthy and happy always. We will always love you. Forever it will be.

Love,

Your mother.

 

 

 

 

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Kayden turns ONE!

Kayden boy turns one!

Few years back I’m shooting Pat & Loon’s engagement photos; last year shooting Pat’s maternity and just a blink of an eye, Kayden boy is one. 🙂

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They drop by last weekend for a super express photo shoot. Without any studio lighting (hence all these shadows) and simple props prepare by Pat. The shoot starts and ends in maybe 30 minutes? Super express one.

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And here comes the special guest – Nana! Hahahaha!

Anyways, hope Kayden had a blast celebrating his first birthday today; and to Pat & Loon, congrats on surviving one year of parenthood! Cheers to many more exciting years to come.

Happy Birthday, Kayden Boy!

Love,

Eva Eva Yiyi 😀

Szeto + Tze Lin

I’m back after a long hiatus! And FINALLY! My dear friend, Tze Lin, upgraded to Mrs. Szeto today!

It’s always been a great pleasure to be able to capture my best friend’s pre-wedding. And thank you for trusting my rusty photography skill after my long break. But on a side note, I’m glad to be able to take this opportunity as to enjoy the ‘short break’ from being a ‘mom’ to go out and shoot again. I need this badly. Thank you my dear friend 😉

I met Tze Lin during my uni time and she’s my coursemate. After we graduated, we often keep in touch and I’m really glad we did, we meet up quite often throughout the years even though she’s staying in Kuantan while I’m at KL. And we could always talk from the moment we met until the time we bid goodbye. Oh well, I can conclude that she’s one of the most talkative friend that I ever had.

Stories aside, she’s really beautiful in white 🙂 I’m glad that we proceed with our shooting plan despite the super hazy weather.

Tze Lin, many happy blessing to you and Szeto (GG). Stay lovely as now, till forever!

This series taken by Canon 5DMkIII with various lenses.
Love,

Eva Eva

 

 

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Alex + Eva (The Wedding Day)

And today, marked our first wedding anniversary! Woohoo!

Oh well, recalling back last year, our wedding is rather simple, we kind of like DIY most of the stuff with great help from some friends. I did a lot of designing in terms of the photo book, the wedding invitation cards, guest books, slideshows and small little things to decorate the place. Alex helping up with the decoration, coordinating, looking for venue and things like that. Flashing back, the preparation indeed very exhausted. Haha! Things didn’t turn out exactly like how we imagine it would be, but good enough, we had great time on that day. I’m blessed that our family, relatives and close friends was there to witness the ceremony and I hope everyone had a memorable day as well.

So now that I’m already became Mrs. Gan for a great one year, so far so good, nothing much to complain but still a lot of things to cope with. We did nagging each other every other day like those old married couples but I guess that’s still a blessing to have someone to nag with. Haha! Anyways, right now, at this moment of time, I enjoy this simple happiness of being someone’s wife, that I have someone to rely on no matter what. ☺️

Here’s the SDE and some highlights of our ROM. Our simple pre-wedding shots available here.

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Cheers to our first wedding anniversary and many more years to come. Happy Anniversary my love.

Love,

Eva Eva

Alex + Eva (The Pre-Wedding)

So, in conjunction of our one year anniversary, here comes our pre-wedding pictures! HAHA!

My thoughts one year ago.

So, finally it’s my turn! Haha! Before the pictures speaks for themselves, I would like to just briefly explain what’s the story behind how I ended up being someone else’s wife.

The feeling of getting married was once scared me off. I always wonder, will I ever manage to find the perfect one. I search for awhile, experience some downfalls, gets up and move on. And by the time I stop searching, I met Alex.

We both attended a photography sharing seminar many years back and our “fate” starts there. It’s not an immediate click or “love at first sight” haha, but happens later after sometime.

Both Alex and I were born in different personalities, we experience different childhood, we grow up to be someone with totally different character. He’s a logical thinking person while I often go with my emotion. In our relationship, he’s the mature one, while I’m the playful one. I guess, that’s what they said, “Opposites attracts.”

Alex isn’t consider as someone who’s super caring, maybe because he’s busy with work or he isn’t sensitive enough but he never failed to take care and support me during my toughest time. He encourage me to grow and take really good care of me when I’m sick or when I’m in need.

Looking back, the first few months of being together was in fact the most challenging for us. We argue almost every single week. We are getting used to the “freedom” we once have, and we did not understand each other just well yet. Heart wrenching, feeling to give up and heart broken. We give us chances, and we try to be a better person for one another. I’m glad we did, as these chances leads us to where we are now, 2 and half years later, we are now husband and wife!

Speaking of our pre-wedding shots, we had a simple photo shoots. Nothing much fancy, just wanted to have some images taken before we gets married. I’ve been imagining how would my pre-wedding shots getting done, but sometimes, nothing will came according to plan! Haha. Now that the real deal is here, I just want something simple. 🙂

The whole series separate into 3 different venue, in 2 days. We had our first photo shoot all by ourselves, by using the camera timer. We had lots of fun. Haha! We portraying nobody but ourselves, nothing fancy, no props, no heavily make up and no special costume. Just a slightly matching shirt for him and dress for me with a birthday flower bouquet specially DIY by Alex as my birthday gift. I guess, that’s good enough. And it’s definitely meaningful enough for us as well. I had the same series taken with film, using my faithful LC-A with the shutter release, but unfortunately many of the shots turns out to be out-of-focus.

The second shots taken at UPM, where I get my bachelor degree from. With the green grass and the infamous UPM tree standing tall, we kinda pose a little (HAHAHA) and get some couple-posing-shots done. I’m wearing a polka dots dress, but unfortunately the dots is too small and it’s did not shown in the picture, but anyways, I had “great experience” posing in front of the camera. Haha!

The third shots we had at the same day, we move to our ROM venue. Both of us really like this place and hence we plan to do a photo shot there as for remembrance. Anyways, here comes the images! If you think it’s takes too long to load for all the images, do check out the slideshow in vimeo which I had embed it below for the summary instead. 🙂

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My thoughts one year after getting married.

So, after being someone else’s wife for one whole year, nothing much change. The biggest changes is that we became Nana’s parents. And to be able to build a family together, is indeed the most “romantic” stuff that we could possibly ask for. Happy Anniversary!

Our SDE and highlights of our ROM available here. Enjoysss!

Love,

Eva Eva.